Trapped in the middle of going forward, staying where you are and backtracking is a state that seems to perplex the mind relentlessly. For those of us that like to hold to a very strong conviction to serve others in our community, school, workplace, church sometimes these areas of service can be very difficult in measuring success or growth for others. Following through on our convictions to serve, there will be times when it doesn’t all look positive. One of the books that I ran to in my faith research was a book titled, Willing to Walk on Water, by Caroline Barnett.
To introduce her and recommend her book, Caroline Barnett married Senior Pastor Matthew Barnett and the two currently serve thousands of inner-city families and individuals with the basic necessities of life at the Dream Center in Los Angeles. Her story is beyond miraculous as to how God has grown this ministry in “God sized” ways including the support of volunteers and financial resources that have been provided. With all of the growth and visible favor, she describes the challenges that come with not always being able to calculate the good that is actually accomplished. She recounts stories of families that have been greatly impacted by the ministry as well as those that seem to have relapsed.
While reading, Willing to Walk on Water, there were a couple of key reminders that one in a state of indecision needs to resort to and gather concretely in the constructs of the spiritual mind.
First, don’t let your mind play tricks on you. What is healthy is that you love wherever you are and much of the time you will be asked to love in “less than lovable” circumstances. Just as you go about loving them, go knowing God loves you dearly.
Second, let God love you. Being willing to fall in love with who God is and that you were a part of his plan all along to bring him glory. You can be one to show his handiwork, his interest in your soul, and his patient plan from the beginning to bring a Great Savior to redeem the souls of man.
Third, read God’s truth because it will put your mind at ease if you believe it to be the word of God. His word is the source of all timeless truth. I can remember plenty of times in sorrow that I found Jesus to be a Savior that sorrows with those that sorrow.
“He was despised and rejected by mankind, a man of suffering, and familiar with pain. Like one from whom people hide their faces he was despised, and we held him in low esteem.” Isaiah 53:3 (N.I.V.)
Indecision and lack of self-assurance can creep up on us, but I find when I lack control, God is willing to direct me if I submit to his ways which are better than my own. Have you become at times less than assured of God’s providential care; I pray you will find rest of mind as you go to him.